What does one do when one is revising one’s manuscript and comes across the following:
In later years, Mary would make breastfeeding a cornerstone of her philosophy, writing many expansive pages on the blessings that would result: “what kind of affection blah blah can a mother have for an infant if she does not breast feed blah blab FIND QUOTE”
I wrote this two years ago. I have no idea where the breastfeeding quote is. I have left myself many notes like this. The Creator was a far better parent than either of her own. *(See early chapter in Mary)
I debate with myself. Either I find these quotes now, or I keep ploughing forward. I am in the midst of the draft I hope to turn in on April 1. I want it to be very far along. As in almost done. When I do keep ploughing, though, I feel troubled. What about those unfound quotes? Will I find them? It makes everything I am writing afterwards feel crumbly, like sand, as though the text is resting on an unfirm foundation, the kind that is shifting and might collapse.